8/27/10 Katie's Healthy Eating Journal: Friday

Hormones can be an irritating part of life for women no matter what stage. I just happened to forget how irritating until I started having a period again and then pregnancy hormones. Remember? Since I was 19 I have not had to deal with PMS because I was on birth control continuously. I couldn't have a period because the endometriosis would grow. So in the past year I was reminded of how crazy hormones can make a person! I really believe not having that surge of hormones had helped me to be more patient, flexible, understanding. I wasn't so quick to judge, react, get my feelings hurt, get angry, or irrational. I deal with my own demons of being the kind of person that strives to be a perfectionist as well as in control. I truly believe when I was at the pinnacle of my Bulimia it was also an utmost desire to control an extreme amount of chaos in my life. Since having these pregnancy hormones all those negative parts of myself have come back during certain situations. I feel out of control again and I don't like it. It certainly is more work to strive to be a better person when hormones are involved isn't it? When I do lose control of my emotions I feel like an ugly person. I hate hurting someone's feelings or feeling like I acted irrational for no reason. It's definitely been a battle inside me to try and stay in control. I abhor crying and that seems like all I've been doing throughout these 10 months. As beautiful as pregnancy is, is certainly takes its toll on a person both physically and emotionally. I look forward to being more of "me" again - but I know even after the delivery the emotions are challenging; if not more than during pregnancy! FRIDAY Breakfast - 2 Kashi Waffles with 1/4 cup sugar-free syrup Banana 1 cup fat-free organic milk Lunch - 2 slices whole wheat bread, lettuce, tomato, and slice of low-fat cheese Fat-free yogurt Snack - Plum Dinner - Salmon patty (8g fat) with whole wheat bun and fat-free mayo Broccoli with 1 tbsp. margarine Snack - 1/4 box of banana cream pudding (fat-free)